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My mom is not doing well at all.

I come home at 11:30pm to a voicemail...I literally paniced, my stomach dropped, I thought I was going to pass out. I thought it was THE call.....the one I have nightmares about.

It wasn't...but she's probably going in the hospital tommorrow or at some point this week. I called her earlier today and she was too weak to even stay on the phone.

I just feel sick...like I could cry and scream for days and it wouldn't get out everything I feel right now. My stomach hurts, I'm tired, I'm nervous, I'm freaked, and I just want tommorrow morning to be here already.

I just can't live like this anymore.....all this stress is really taking a toll.
I just want to fucking run away and never stop..