aponia

Its been two days since an update. And anyone reading this on a semi-regular basis knows thats a long time for me.

Work has been swamped. I'm literally drowning in paperwork. I've even told my boss I'm swamped and he barely batted an eyelash. I'm annoyed. And I think all the stress is causing me to have hyper-manic episodes in the afternoons and evenings. My drugs can't even control it anymore.

Fuck this...seriously. I'm so passed annoyed and angry, I'm just apathetic. I could care fucking less.

My mom should be going in for surgery next week. And it looks like it may be back to back with my craft show. I'm not even excited about going anymore. I'll go, try to make some money, then put my business on the back burner for awhile. I need to straighten out alot of shit in my life before I focus on getting a business together. It will happen, just not now. Its a depressing decision, but its something I have to do, just to keep my own sanity. Plus, with my bum arm, production is non-existent. I need to learn how to sew, so I don't have to rely as much on physical labor.

I haven't had the best week. Knitting circle was fun, but it was the highlight. I come home sweaty and frazzled everyday. I'm usually so exhausted I don't want to do anything. This weekend should be stressful too. I need to go home and do alot of family stuff. Saturday I need to do everything I can't do the rest of the time.

If anyone would like to go drinking on Saturday please let me know...I need to get away.

I'm grumpy. I probably shouldn't post when I'm grumpy. I need a big hug and a big drink.

I hope everyone had a good week.