a note on mortality
all things pass relationships, lives, years.. as a god might say we are those whom pass.. we change and move on and to so much in this world... today a coworker of mine got dumped by a guy she loved the last breakup was nothing for her she wanted him out but this one she didnt want to pass... i think its a mortal nature to want to hold on to things and time as if if we stoped it we would be able to somehow find happness in the sagnet present we created... or maby its the though of lousing something... but no matter what when we live we fear the passing of things... so much that we battle even our own instints that tell us its ok move on there are things to sort out now... as far as im conserned ... i think that nieves was the first precious thing i ever had... my blades id be sad if i broke one but they can allways be reforged or re bought... but the peace she gave me ... and the sence of things being ok ... when we were together it seemed like my life was great and it would stay great for days... but when we wornt id worry about everything... now i think i dont worry enouf... i guess i dont have much to louse these days.. i do love nieves ... but till she and i can find that intamcy there cant be a realtionship ive swalled that what i cant get by is what im supose to do now... im no good with people unless there dammaged goods... im only good with someone when i can fix or help in some way and when ive done something i get tossed like the garbage... its just my life now im being told i half to find someone for myself cause i want to ... but i dont desire anything i could ever get... ... maby thats why i realy only live while helping someone.. cause i cant on my own but if thats the case then where do i pass from here...
i think thats the greatest thing about being mortal that theres allways something elce waiting to come to you ...somewhere...but what and where is never under you control... so i wait... i hate waiting for time to give me my next thing to do ... what it will be heck if i know but ill do it cause theres not much elce to do anyway..
so thats my mortality ... and maby everyones we only fear the passing of the gems we find... the great things that we search for and are aloud to be by for a short time... we all fear losing that dimond in the ruff that we have found and pollished and clamed as ours or part of us... it becomes something we fear we cannot live without but ... we all ways do... and we allways will... i still say id rather be a god... then ... well i guess thats the ceach of being a god there are no gems to a god... only people and things to do... no peace no tranquil moment... to be human may be better than .. to experance life and enjoy it for even a little time... for the god knowing our hardship will allways help when we ask... for that is the nature of understanding...
all things pass relationships, lives, years.. as a god might say we are those whom pass.. we change and move on and to so much in this world... today a coworker of mine got dumped by a guy she loved the last breakup was nothing for her she wanted him out but this one she didnt want to pass... i think its a mortal nature to want to hold on to things and time as if if we stoped it we would be able to somehow find happness in the sagnet present we created... or maby its the though of lousing something... but no matter what when we live we fear the passing of things... so much that we battle even our own instints that tell us its ok move on there are things to sort out now... as far as im conserned ... i think that nieves was the first precious thing i ever had... my blades id be sad if i broke one but they can allways be reforged or re bought... but the peace she gave me ... and the sence of things being ok ... when we were together it seemed like my life was great and it would stay great for days... but when we wornt id worry about everything... now i think i dont worry enouf... i guess i dont have much to louse these days.. i do love nieves ... but till she and i can find that intamcy there cant be a realtionship ive swalled that what i cant get by is what im supose to do now... im no good with people unless there dammaged goods... im only good with someone when i can fix or help in some way and when ive done something i get tossed like the garbage... its just my life now im being told i half to find someone for myself cause i want to ... but i dont desire anything i could ever get... ... maby thats why i realy only live while helping someone.. cause i cant on my own but if thats the case then where do i pass from here...
i think thats the greatest thing about being mortal that theres allways something elce waiting to come to you ...somewhere...but what and where is never under you control... so i wait... i hate waiting for time to give me my next thing to do ... what it will be heck if i know but ill do it cause theres not much elce to do anyway..
so thats my mortality ... and maby everyones we only fear the passing of the gems we find... the great things that we search for and are aloud to be by for a short time... we all fear losing that dimond in the ruff that we have found and pollished and clamed as ours or part of us... it becomes something we fear we cannot live without but ... we all ways do... and we allways will... i still say id rather be a god... then ... well i guess thats the ceach of being a god there are no gems to a god... only people and things to do... no peace no tranquil moment... to be human may be better than .. to experance life and enjoy it for even a little time... for the god knowing our hardship will allways help when we ask... for that is the nature of understanding...
but your art work is yours and yours alone dont put to much empasis on what others think and just paint from you soul it will allways be a masterpiece then...