apocdistroyer

i hate hangovers.... the groggy sence of being out of control... this ones not to bad ... but still it sucks.... at least i feel better i think at least... its hard to tell right now...
you know what sucks when you think so much that even an action thats ment to be instint becomes an action of thought... you cant enjoy the connnection with a person no you feel as if your using them and thats wrong... and it is but why cant i just go out onece and a while and be somewhat norm and have fun... with out the pain of thought... dont get me wrong i love understanding and all but i could do without it everyonece and a while ... and sadly you cant just shut it off when you dont want it... and turn it back on when you do ...its on or its not ... and my brain is allways on... i mind as well be marven.... its even more horrable than i imagend.... o well back to the meanless shift of life.... on ward and to noware we go....