well life it's big and expancive just like space i think thats why people get lost in it so much... its like the possablitys are so much that most people with weak wills get lost and cant deside weater to keep going or run way... humans.. to be human is to cange is to progress but by changing and progressing we destroy what we love most our lives...ourselves must cange ... i wanted to be a calm quite artist and poet with only one thing that meant anything ..nieves... and you know what i cant have it ... not because i didnt fight for it .. but becasue by doing so i deny myself what i want to be 
and although i see the endlessness of life and space i understand that not all things are forever.. and someday ill find something that will let me settle down and stop fighting endlessly but for now its off to the battlefield of life... with sword in hand ill battle till my blades glissen red with the blood of my enemys and till im finaly able to be happy.. and be safe with the one's i love ... so now im going back to what i did before i met nieves programing and workingout ... i push it to its limits and then i push them again untill i have no limits... although i dont want to say this .. it seems theres a black wind around a new friend of mine so whatever comes dont get to wraped up in it ... the wind of death allways passes and it doesnt allways take someone with it ... so please be careful in the next few days ok i dont want to louse anyone to death.. that would suck so much... 
so be safe and be happy thats all anyone whom loves us would wish...
and although i see the endlessness of life and space i understand that not all things are forever.. and someday ill find something that will let me settle down and stop fighting endlessly but for now its off to the battlefield of life... with sword in hand ill battle till my blades glissen red with the blood of my enemys and till im finaly able to be happy.. and be safe with the one's i love ... so now im going back to what i did before i met nieves programing and workingout ... i push it to its limits and then i push them again untill i have no limits... although i dont want to say this .. it seems theres a black wind around a new friend of mine so whatever comes dont get to wraped up in it ... the wind of death allways passes and it doesnt allways take someone with it ... so please be careful in the next few days ok i dont want to louse anyone to death.. that would suck so much...
so be safe and be happy thats all anyone whom loves us would wish...
I've been trying lately to look at all the good things in my life right now and all the great things I have to look forward to in the near future.
I don't know everything that happened with Nieves, but it seems like whatever it was hurt you a lot. The best thing I think you can do is to look forward to the positive things in your life right now, friends, family, and who knows, a possible new someone to fill that void that came about when you two split.
And don't worry about your enemies, remember the rule of three and simply, what goes around comes around. If they truly are your enemies, they'll get what they deserve in the end.
Ok, so I'm starting to ramble. So I guess all I can say for now is, keep your chin up and be optimistic.
Blessed Be!
me and nieves broke up ... sadly because she and i just stoped being together and she was "unable to be with a male " im happy that me and her are still friends i love her and shes great but ... when you cant have a physical energys excanged no unions ... the relationship fall's about we started fighting a lot and when i broke it off she still resents me a little but were happyer together... this way... i wated 3 mounths for things to change even a little but .. .there was no sight of it