apocdistroyer

gosh yesterday sucked magerly... i thought at first it will be ok ... but i ended getting draged to a weding with my ex ... and then after seeing and saying im sorry that i didnt make it cause frankly i didnt want to bring her day down on the account of me not fully being over nieves and all ... since the thing that pushed our relationship over the edge was marage and mangomy anyway ... i spend most of the day sad depressed and alone as usal ... but i guess nieves has a small point ... its been three months and i havent even gone and seen someone or talked to some girl trying to get a new friend ... i mean in the real world not on the net where women are safe and more than happy to talk and here you vent about stupidity...

i just wish i could get over things faster but frankly i suck at it ... majorly i spend all my time thinking about how things went wrong and shes right i need to start thinking about what i want... and i defently need to stop making one person everything i want in my life... its been turning out to be to much of a let down lately anyway ... weather she and i ever get back togeter( wont happen in a millon years ... cry... ) i half to exept that we arnt now and franly find someone whom can make me happy and feel warm and like im worth something... even if only for a while... ... but more improtanly i half to find something else i love other than someone ... and no more swords or destruction ... there good when you need to protect someone but frankly theredays the idots dont seem to bother many people ... and my curent collection is more than enouf to deal with any idot... allthought i do need a new dragon slayer dagger... i need something that i can get envolved with people(i suck with people) cause im not good to anyone if i stay this isolated... well better days will come... it cant rain everyday ... just for a few years strait