i finaly got my tickets for the 25th of october so im going ... im not use to going out or anything .... but nieves is right as most are that i need to do something anything ... even if its not the time i need to try ... if only to fail at least i could have something in my life that makes me happy if only for a moment .... so im trying to smile 
. but as usal i suck at it....
i supose thats my fate... but if it is i can live with it... cause i get to help great people become happer and i get to be by so many awsome women .... sadly they move on when what they needed was fixed or mended ... but its ok... cause at least i was able to do something for them ....and i was able to feel like i was worth something for once... my cards say that my life isnt going to get any easer ... but it doesnt matter ... if i turn back on my ideals than all the pain and sorrow that ive been throught and all the people whom gave up so much to help me would all be for nothing ... i just cant let that happen ... casue .... my life my suck but it is the right path ... and i wount let the sacrfices that have been made to make me strong be for nothing .... i wont change ... but i need to ....do something for myself for a while so im starting to get back into video games and drawing ... my swordplay sucks lattly and im sure i should practice more soon ... but its hard to train with no sparing parners.... i guess ill do what i allways do ... iprovise... laters all and blessed be ...
p.s. make your lives full of happness ... its all that is worth doing these days... and please dont let men treat you like trash... there not worth the pain they cause and if you love them you half to love yourself enouf to stop them for hurting you and move on to someone whom can make you truely happy ... its the best thing anyone can do for a male is say no more you cange or im going to find someone whom will... by that action if every woman did it men would half to change and if only those whom are ready to do it then it makes the men whom want something real half to casue ""YOU ARE WORTH IT . EVERY SINGLE BIT OF IT !!!!""
REMBER IT
. but as usal i suck at it....
i supose thats my fate... but if it is i can live with it... cause i get to help great people become happer and i get to be by so many awsome women .... sadly they move on when what they needed was fixed or mended ... but its ok... cause at least i was able to do something for them ....and i was able to feel like i was worth something for once... my cards say that my life isnt going to get any easer ... but it doesnt matter ... if i turn back on my ideals than all the pain and sorrow that ive been throught and all the people whom gave up so much to help me would all be for nothing ... i just cant let that happen ... casue .... my life my suck but it is the right path ... and i wount let the sacrfices that have been made to make me strong be for nothing .... i wont change ... but i need to ....do something for myself for a while so im starting to get back into video games and drawing ... my swordplay sucks lattly and im sure i should practice more soon ... but its hard to train with no sparing parners.... i guess ill do what i allways do ... iprovise... laters all and blessed be ...
p.s. make your lives full of happness ... its all that is worth doing these days... and please dont let men treat you like trash... there not worth the pain they cause and if you love them you half to love yourself enouf to stop them for hurting you and move on to someone whom can make you truely happy ... its the best thing anyone can do for a male is say no more you cange or im going to find someone whom will... by that action if every woman did it men would half to change and if only those whom are ready to do it then it makes the men whom want something real half to casue ""YOU ARE WORTH IT . EVERY SINGLE BIT OF IT !!!!""
REMBER IT