apocdistroyer

... moving .. sucks... its not that the prosses of moving is so bad but the process of breaking down the walls and barriers that said this was home... and for a time the unsertianty of life gets to you ... the will i ever have a home again.. will i ever be free again... ....
moving on sucks also ... i spent so long trying to make a life with nieves ...now that there is no possabilty of us ... im left with close to nothing... my hearts been acking lately... its like the world is just to much for me these days ... ive been packing sleeping and working... i wonder whats sadder the fact that i cant move on even at the age of 20 or the fact that ... i lost nieves to women... that im not good enouf.... i wish i knew what needed to be done for my life to shift the way i want it to.... but lately i guess the whole moving things got me down... more so than usal...
to love and hold is the best thing but to love and lose the next best... i dont realy think people who loved will ever say is good to louse love... but to have a conclusion to a bad life ... i see the good in it i guess... these days are to much for me... no one to turn to ... no one but nieves and well i half to stop myself from being dependendt on one person ... i supose im alone again... o well... as the stars glissen im sure i will smile again.. ive got me ... and im not dead... so i guess on i go...