well life it's big and expancive just like space i think thats why people get lost in it so much... its like the possablitys are so much that most people with weak wills get lost and cant deside weater to keep going or run way... humans.. to be human is to cange is to progress but by changing and progressing we destroy what we love...
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does anyone think my pic is to aggresive??
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designfetish:
It kinda does, only because, well you are in fact a male.
[Edited on Sep 30, 2005 7:54PM]
[Edited on Sep 30, 2005 7:54PM]
apocdistroyer:
damit .. its getting changed.... stupid male body
apocdistroyer:
.... just old and resent photos
theres one more thing if anyone knows of a good place to start ... hang out's ect.. put them here ... its not like theres open dojos that i can just go spar in these days and i need to get to know more peopel face to face... so if anyone has any ideas leave them here please..
blessed be and may we all find...
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blessed be and may we all find...
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... today its been over 3 mounts since me and nieves broke up... we stayed friends and shes been doing ok.. but ive been so angry and sad that i guess its been blinding me ... ive tryed everything and tonight at another day of bordum on night shift... i hurd a guy on love line 20 years old just like i was 5 years...
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i finaly got my instant messanger working so if anyone wants to talk check my contact stuff ...
gosh yesterday sucked magerly... i thought at first it will be ok ... but i ended getting draged to a weding with my ex ... and then after seeing and saying im sorry that i didnt make it cause frankly i didnt want to bring her day down on the account of me not fully being over nieves and all ... since the thing that...
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apocdistroyer:
art from old scrapbooks i did
i finaly got my tickets for the 25th of october so im going ... im not use to going out or anything .... but nieves is right as most are that i need to do something anything ... even if its not the time i need to try ... if only to fail at least i could have something in my life that makes me...
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nieves is such a pack rat.... shes a great girl thought ... i think inspite of her anger... gosh i hate anger... (ozmorion) all there is ... is the truth that theres no way to make our lives together... but although i still love that girl .i know that theres no way we will work anymore so im trying to hold together a friendship... but...
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designfetish:
I'm sorry things aren't going very well for ya. If ya wanna talk, you know where to find me. 
friends are great ... its funny ... i allways sucked at makeing them in the normal world but here im ok ... its nice to be excepted by people whom like me for what i feel and who i am and not on what i look like or how dumb i can sound... its so stupid isnt it the norm(aka god(since the christians ideal of...
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aceptance ... i hate that word ... its like giving up but set in a tone to heal (what a load of crap)
nieves said i should just move on and acept that theres nothing i can do ... i have but im not going to go put some girl thought hell just so i can get her out of my system ...
why do...
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nieves said i should just move on and acept that theres nothing i can do ... i have but im not going to go put some girl thought hell just so i can get her out of my system ...
why do...
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designfetish:
Wow. There aren't a lot of men in this world who would say something like you did here. Sex is such a touchy topic nowadays. A lot of guys I know are interested in one thing and the emotions of the girl never seem to matter. So I'm glad to see that you care about another's feelings and not just your penis.
Blessed Be!
Blessed Be!
apocdistroyer:
i just hope im not the only one. lets face it there are far to many idots in this world and sadly far to many wemon whom have gotten use to being used as toys ...
I've been trying lately to look at all the good things in my life right now and all the great things I have to look forward to in the near future.
I don't know everything that happened with Nieves, but it seems like whatever it was hurt you a lot. The best thing I think you can do is to look forward to the positive things in your life right now, friends, family, and who knows, a possible new someone to fill that void that came about when you two split.
And don't worry about your enemies, remember the rule of three and simply, what goes around comes around. If they truly are your enemies, they'll get what they deserve in the end.
Ok, so I'm starting to ramble. So I guess all I can say for now is, keep your chin up and be optimistic.
Blessed Be!
me and nieves broke up ... sadly because she and i just stoped being together and she was "unable to be with a male " im happy that me and her are still friends i love her and shes great but ... when you cant have a physical energys excanged no unions ... the relationship fall's about we started fighting a lot and when i broke it off she still resents me a little but were happyer together... this way... i wated 3 mounths for things to change even a little but .. .there was no sight of it