apocdistroyer

its funny i guess .. the more my body wants to have sex.. the more my mind and soul fight it... its funny cause it just makes me go back and forth... its like ping pong... but at least ill never hurt someone for my own sick preversions... i supose its just that line of i want this but if i do i know what...
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well its allmost time for me to go... ill be offline for a mounth or so ... its so tarreble... cry
on november 7th there turrning my internet off...
but dont lose me cause ill be back in decmeber
and please do me a favor if you want to leave me notes leave them in my journal k and the favor is tell me how...
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... moving .. sucks... its not that the prosses of moving is so bad but the process of breaking down the walls and barriers that said this was home... and for a time the unsertianty of life gets to you ... the will i ever have a home again.. will i ever be free again... ....
moving on sucks also ... i spent so long...
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got my tatto finished yesterday the morning of the great sucide girls show ... it was fucking awsome... im a total nixen fan... she signed my poster...i feel so special it sucked a little cause my tat got finished at 1am that morning... but it was totaly worth it.. im so excited.. and o my goddess.. there were so many beatuiful women ... wish gage...
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got my tatto started today .. its a defenate work in progress but soon it will be done .. thats so cool ill put pics up soon .. smiles..

got my tatto started today .. its a defenate work in progress but soon it will be done .. thats so cool ill put pics up soon .. smiles..

hello things are dull and it seems im showing people what they dont want to see again.. i hate that when people know what you say is right and they dont want to except it. its ok to hold on but not to kill the messanger of the truth
althought i know why people hate truth
as my old friend kazer would say
a lie...
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im working on moving. with any luck i should be in my new apt. around the 7th of next mounth. its ok im moving in with my ex and her friend (yes another lesbian). its better finacialy but my love life is shot all to hell. o well thats what i get for being me.... but its ok ... there all cool and it gives...
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its been a few days ... being a male sucks so much... all this stupid drive that is so hard to control... every minute of every day... and its not like hunting working out training..playing video games or anything does any good.. cause to seconds into whatever there it is...i hate men and i understand them far to well... but just because they have a...
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a note on mortality
all things pass relationships, lives, years.. as a god might say we are those whom pass.. we change and move on and to so much in this world... today a coworker of mine got dumped by a guy she loved the last breakup was nothing for her she wanted him out but this one she didnt want to pass... i think...
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i hate hangovers.... the groggy sence of being out of control... this ones not to bad ... but still it sucks.... at least i feel better i think at least... its hard to tell right now...
you know what sucks when you think so much that even an action thats ment to be instint becomes an action of thought... you cant enjoy the connnection with...
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some days you just half to hate life.. and all the idocincratic noncenss brought on by these mindless idots... they make me so sick.. i awoke today and found only the stupidity of the world to greet me... and to boot im broke again ... i hate that... my kitty is being a little shit lately im not sure whats gotten into him but hes...
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