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What a bad day I had Friday. I played terribly in band, to the point where I squeaked like hell and I'm sure damn near blew out the girl next to me's ear drums... pretty bad. Thank God Dr. Buell never called me on it... I would have been pretty damned humiliated. I still have to play for him over the next couple days. Maybe I'll keep putting it off until he says "meh, whatever". If he mentions anything about it I'll just be like, "ohshi.. I totally forgot!!!" And hopefully I'll get lucky enough that he won't ask me any scales I'm not so good at... I'm just afraid he's going to be like, "you can't even play ____? What the hell are you even doing here?" ... I'm still convinced that I'm not good enough for this place. Anyways, that day I also got back a theory assignment which I did terribly in because I left out a question by mistake that was worth a lot. Then later in history I was supposed to pass in a listening journal that I didn't know about... hurray for zeros. Then we had master class where my embarrassing sightreading skills were put to the test... and I failed miserably. Ew.

The weekend was considerably better though. Mostly because I saw some old friends, got drunk with a lot of boys, and spend most of my time hiding from my problems in my boyfriends arms... although, if there is a place to hide from your problems, that's a hell of a good place to be. : )

A spider has set up camp underneath my dresser. I'm not comfortable with this but I'm too scared to try to poke him out with the curtain rod. He's smart and scurries really fast... I'm afraid I'll wake up with him on my face.

Anyways, off to study a little more for my German test tomorrow. Auf Wiedersehen!!