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Party tonight! We're having our housewarming extravaganza/ladies night tonight, so that should be fun. The boy is hanging out with his friends tonight, but that's alright, he doesn't really enjoy downtown that much anyways, so I wouldn't want to put him through that hahaha. I think he's going to kareoke tonight, and I'm kinda sad because I want to sing! Ah well, another time! Besides, I plan on drinking tonight and I learned my lesson from the last time I went to kareoke loaded... I'm a terrible singer when I'm drinking. Awful, awful awful. I don't know how anyone on earth can control their voice under the influence of anything. I watched a Who documentary with Colin (the boy) yesterday and there was a clip of Roger Daltry singing while he was high on acid on a high stage... how was that not fucking him in the head? And how was he singing so on key? I need to know rock stars' secrets. I like the confidence the booze gives me to actually get my ass up there, but damn... I'd rather not get up at all than sing that bad haha.

So, today was my third day of music school, and I LOVELOVELOVE it! School isn't a burden, my classes are fascinating and fun. I'm good at it! I always sort of felt like I was the bottom of the barrel when it came to skill level, like they barely let me into music school, but now I'm finally starting to accept the fact that I am a good musician, I do know a lot about history and theory, and dammit I do belong there.

See the confidence I have when I'm not in Labrador? Even I shock myself sometimes. I guess I'm just feeling good again. I'm happy, I'm in love, and I'm doing exactly what I want with my life. I could never ask for more.

Although, I wish I hadn't slept through the Kanye West performance on Oprah earlier...