aphexplotz

I've realized that i'm only inclined to post in my journal when something upsets me. A sort of catharsis, i guess, I just dont think about it when i'm happy, but when i need to get something off my chest or whine and bitch, I tend to post.

Tonight officially sucked balls. I dont even want to get in to the details, but I just want to punch someone or something. Hard. Many times. Ugh, thats so out of character for me. I dont think i've ever punched anything out of anger before a couple weeks ago. Ever. I've done it several times in the last few weeks. Its not healthy.

I've been angry a lot lately, its not healthy. My life is a lot different than it used to be even 6 months ago. I dont have a lot of the positive influences i used to. I work, I go to the bars, and i go to school. I need a goddamn break from all this, its going to kill me.

3 people have told me i'm getting fat this week. Its hard to be angry or annoyed when i agree with them. I need to start working out more.

I think i'm going to go down to LA for the thanksgiving holiday. I need to just get away from everything.

Say something nice to me. I need it.