apex_tiki

when i expect something to happen it wont. when i do expect it, it doesnt happen.

i left my phone home tonight accidentally. i didnt think anything of it. so of course, i come home to find a text message. beanne got hit, and she needed me. of course that would happend when i dont think anything will go down. so now i cant reach her. and yeah, her away message is on. great. ill be back to update this later. take care all.

what a fuckin day. there is no time to do what i wanna do. so many obligations, so many appointments. tomorrow, i drive to see luckystar well techinically today. that will be my unwinding for this hell week. then saturday out with franandzooey hopefully. then sunday is the race. who rules, i do. yes. beanne is doing well. kinda. i feel really bad that i didnt get her calls. so many things weighing me down tonight. apparently vala(my old love), said her new guy has a problem with me. well, i dont think thats right, i never met him and he doesnt like me. or isnt comfortable with her around me. oh well. i dont think its right of him to say he trusts her, but not with me. this is because she said that, she still loved me and wanted me around. oh fuck. how do i know this, she told me. and my friend that hooked us up told me. fuckin episode of the goddamn OC. im out, gonna get some rest, and make phone calls.