apex_tiki

nothing could feel as bad as hearing her tell me she didnt want to talk anymore. she leaves at the end of february. she leaves to go home. and there is nothing i can do. i was happy with her. never seeing her, but i was happy. tonight crumbled beneath me. i sat outside talking to her. arguing, talking, and everything else. she means so much to me. i cried tonight. its been a very long time since that happened. but hearing her tell me that brought me to tears. i never would have thought that someone that i have never looked in the eye could be so much to me. its hurting me to type this because i am thinkin of her the whole time. i want to stop here so i dont feel worse.

i love you aly.