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apathy_activist

Canada

Member Since 2002

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Thursday Nov 14, 2002

Nov 14, 2002
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I am boucning quickly back and forth between confidence and dispair, sometimes in a ten minute period. I think they have a word for it, but I can't come up with it now; I am tired.

When I think of what I have to do in the next six weeks, i feel a choking panic. When I only concentrate on one thing, I can handle myself. The problem is, by avoiding the big picture, sometimes I get too relaxed. Like today, I got home from school and had a nap. For three hours!

It's funny. I've been a member here since July, and I still feel like I'm on the outside looking in. Must be the geography. All of the serious freindships seem to come from personal interaction, not the disembodied kind.

It's the same way I feel at school all the time. Some of it, of course, is of my own doing. The ambercrombie and finch crowd don't necessrily look for new friends in black hoodies and chucks. At the same time, it's not that I'm looking for a crowd of A&H buddies, but at my school, there isn't much of an option. Reminds me of Strong Bad's advice to the frat guys about their theme party.

"Count me in, bra."
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possession09:
i am so with you....i mean...im feeling your pain.....
isnt that how it always it though??? i mean you kind of have to face the big pic, other wise......you miss...the big picture...

yet ....oh yes, there is a yet...when you face the big picture, you realize that it is almost to overwhelming so you go back to the little picture..it is a mad cycle.

lol..sounds like we both need a vacation.
Nov 15, 2002
jimbobpop:
what is this personal interaction, you speak of?

the internet's manifest consciousness.. mm.. how complimentary..
i'm sorry to disappoint.. both you and i.. but no.

you can stay as long as you'd like, it's not recommended, is all.
Nov 15, 2002

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