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I just had to tell my best friend that her ex-boyfriend killed himself.

That is definitely not cool. And to add to that, I found out about it while hanging out with Josh (those of you who are regular readers of my journal will remember stories of him and how worried I was about him about 6 months ago or so), whom I used to sort of date and whom I have a very contentious relationship with. We are not friends, really, and it sucks. At the same time, while I really hate him a lot of the time, he has been a part of my life for a long time and seeing him this upset about losing a friend is not cool. Even harder because I can't just comfort him like I can my girlfriend. With her I know what to say and with him nothing I say is going to be the right thing.

And on that uplifting note...back to me. My parents insist on arguing politics with me even though the damn election is over and THEY WON. It's so funny. Both of my parents are from the North, but they seem to have adopted the Red States. It really makes me sad to see this country so split and both sides hating each other virulently over it. I hate Bush more for that than anything else. Because when it comes down to it, we're all people who want the same things. We want friends and family, a decent job we like doing, free time to do fun things, and nothing horrible to happen to people we love. That's all anyone wants. Some of us put philosophical names on things, but really, that's all we want. We just get caught up in greed and competition and fear of differences, and we devolve into the "Fuck you, Jack, I've got mine," way of thinking. Which devolves even more to the "if you're not like me you're BAD" way of thinking.