Fuck.
Just reading a page or two of Craigslist job ads has made me seriously depressed about the prospects for ever finding something to do that will pay me.
The shitheads who write for the major glossies out there don't do anything I can't do better.
My parents tout returning to school like it's going to cure all my ills, like graduating with honors got me so far to begin with.
I need to get out of the South. At least out of this town and this state. Having a boy around distracted me for a while, but he was definitely right about one thing--I should get the hell out of Dodge and not think twice about him.
The problem with all of this is that it's a really big world and it's quite hard to convince anyone, with just a page or two of resume, that I'm the best woman for the job. If I can get into an interview, maybe I can swing something, but I don't look any more exciting on paper than anyone else. I'm just a chick with an English degree who's done some writing for local online papers (and a porn site
) and one real magazine that went out of business two issues after hiring me. In between, I've managed a bike shop and tutored some kids, and worked at far too many restaurants.
And I feel like the only way to get anywhere is just to do it myself. Fuck sucking up to people for a job, right?
I don't know. Most of the time I feel great, like I can do anything, but just the idea of the job market makes me want to curl up in a corner and die. Or better yet, marry someone who will support me.
That's pathetic.
Any advice would be lovely. And I don't mean "keep your chin up" and "you rule" advice. I know that shit. I mean practical, serious advice on how to survive without completely selling my soul.
Just reading a page or two of Craigslist job ads has made me seriously depressed about the prospects for ever finding something to do that will pay me.
The shitheads who write for the major glossies out there don't do anything I can't do better.
My parents tout returning to school like it's going to cure all my ills, like graduating with honors got me so far to begin with.
I need to get out of the South. At least out of this town and this state. Having a boy around distracted me for a while, but he was definitely right about one thing--I should get the hell out of Dodge and not think twice about him.
The problem with all of this is that it's a really big world and it's quite hard to convince anyone, with just a page or two of resume, that I'm the best woman for the job. If I can get into an interview, maybe I can swing something, but I don't look any more exciting on paper than anyone else. I'm just a chick with an English degree who's done some writing for local online papers (and a porn site
) and one real magazine that went out of business two issues after hiring me. In between, I've managed a bike shop and tutored some kids, and worked at far too many restaurants.
And I feel like the only way to get anywhere is just to do it myself. Fuck sucking up to people for a job, right?
I don't know. Most of the time I feel great, like I can do anything, but just the idea of the job market makes me want to curl up in a corner and die. Or better yet, marry someone who will support me.
That's pathetic.
Any advice would be lovely. And I don't mean "keep your chin up" and "you rule" advice. I know that shit. I mean practical, serious advice on how to survive without completely selling my soul.