anywayyouneedme

yay i'm back! vacation was mega boring... i missed lisa and the site like fuck... only good day was christmas because i was at my aunts and she basically told me to help myself to anything at the bar. so i had a couple glasses of wine and some coffee with baileys and then some with kahlua... a few shots of whiskey and some diet coke with whiskey to chase with... and then a WHOLE GLASS OF HPNOTIQ on the rocks... OMG a whole glass, it made me so happy! i love that stuff. it was weird though, i wasn't really drunk... like i was hoping to be... you know, being with my whole family... kind of hard to tolerate... but i just got like... gin drunk... you know? you like... don't feel it but... yeah... i noticed i said really stupid things... that i didn't mean to say. haha. damn... it's been like 4 days since i've smoked and i'm about to... die. i want to play with lisa and the hot tub and dex... and make a movie. i hope she's okay. with... that thing.