anyanka_____

I'm quite frustrated. The other day I found a note from my roommate asking me if L was living with us now and that if he was that she would just move out and live with her boyfriend, and L could take over her part of the lease. This confuses me. First of all, as much as I care for L, I do not think him living here on a more permanent basis would be a wise decision. At least, not this early. I love having him here and everything, and that is in no way a bad thing as far as I am concerned, but he is merely staying here with me while he figures his own stuff out....like where he is moving to and so forth. Secondly, I am not sure whether Ashley (my room mate) is trying to be nice and dissapear because she thinks I don't like her ( due to the fact we never see each other any more on account of our schedules being so different) or if she is being a bitch and saying she hates me and wants out. Either way, I'm scared to talk to her about it all because the only contact I've had with her lately has been from messages she leaves for me with L where she is basically being a huge bitch, or when she barged into my room at 12:30 at night while L and I were about to have sex....let me just add that she seemed confused that my reaction to that was " HOLY SHIT ASHLEY GET OUT!" (I mean, she did not knock or anything, just barged in!) It's not that I don't like her, it's just that she and I have become so distant from one another in the past few months, and it really doesn't help that whenever either one of us has anything to say to the other it is usually negative. I really don't know what to do. I'm honestly quite scared to talk to her because I get this horrible feeling that I'm going to get bitched out for things I didn't even know I was doing. The whole thing is a big old complicated mess. I guess I'll just have to suck it up and say something, I just don't even know how to begin to talk to her about all this.