antirock

minor heartbreaks x100 this week.
girls. elections. etc.
i've discovered once again that i cannot control my feelings, only my outward manifestations of them. i told myself not to like katie after she started talking to her ex again, but alas, my heart didn't listen. now i'm destined for disappointment.
i'm also really disappointed that i haven't done any art pieces recently. i'm thinking about another stencil piece. i need to go buy some cans.

at least i'm doing well in school. and i still have music to play. and there's always sg.
everybody on here is so nice. not to mention naked. it makes me happy to talk to people hundreds or thousands of miles away who have no connection to me other than that they like naked girls and are nice.

i really want to get some more tattoo action going. i have a billion ideas and some extra cash flow so i just need to set up an appointment and get things going.

should i get a piercing?
i've never had one, but i've considered long and hard getting a couple different ones. i used to want my nipples done, but a traumatic rough sex experience kind of weened me away from that idea. i've recently thought a lot about some kind of facial action, most likely a lip or septum ring. my fear is that it wouldn't look good on me and be a waste. i need to go buy a good fakie and wear it out for a while.

reccommended set of the day: snow - blue face
she's absolutely beautiful, and that set is sooo alive.
also, both sets from today make me really happy.


i'm holding out and i'm holding on
to every letter and every song.
i pulled myself out of the day we ever had to meet.
are you through with me?

and when it all goes to hell,
will you be able to tell me sorry with a straight face.

i'm all ears and i'm all scars
to hear you tell me "boy's like you, you try too hard
to look not quite as desperate". i'm hanging on.
but i still know the way to make your makeup run.

[chipmunk]