antipunk

Hahaha I'm laughing so hysterical... So dreadful I'm plunging fear into my soul
Sinking deeper I hear it murmur "no no"
Eaten up alive I'm laughing cackling high
oh it so sensual to be doused with reality face first...
I'm illterate I can't speak I only repeat oh like the wars of old its new to me
I'm thinking fast running farther falling fast bashin...
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-carnal-

I'm salacious fervor subdued...
To many years I've spent undressed... naked alone here
I pant, I want, longing, yearning, breathing, screaming... "ITS BURNING!!!"
Thrashing against the walls... Twisting in the sheets
Pounding against bed springs Haunting your dreams
It comes toppling over me... A thousand pounds of barbaric concrete Eviscerating
This purgatory is apathyAbsolute power in its cruelest form

Palpitations throbbing, pushing, thrusting corrosion...
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Can't, won't, will, perhaps, right now!

I must CONFORM! Tell me how.
I've been listening for quite a while now.
So many ideas, so many people talking, SOOOOO MANY "RIGHTS" god I just can't seem to pick...which right is right? Everytime I decide somebody else proves them wrong and I can never find somebody who can't be proven wrong.
It makes me ask are any...
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Something happened very strange to me the other day. People started thanking me and asked me to start a club or something so they could listen to me. I found myself in a position of leadership...I've never been a leader before, people come up asking for my approval, thoughts and insight. There is more pressure being on top. Now I have to take care of...
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Sunday, September 9, 2007 4:44pm I cackle a scream "IS THIS HELL?!" as I knead my tears back into my face. Failing to gasp a breath between sobs my phone rings. I peer through the eyes of Monet squinting at my phone painting this caller a reprieve whom I can confess my anguish. 1,217 miles away my mother's voice wells, "Robert, Molly (your sister) is...
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Purpose: The reason for which something exists or is done, made, used.

Responsible: answerable or accountable, as for something within one's power, control, or management
Responsibility: the state or fact of being responsible

Ability: competence in an activity or occupation because of one's skill, training, or other qualification

Acceptance the quickest route to maturity and apathy...My mind now violently weaves. I'm making tapestry the likes I've never seen. Now with age and what I call a lack of failure I adhear to goals and realize I've become the unexpected, achieved.

Ha the last time I finished anything was highschool almsot failing senior year. The world looks different when you get old...the world feels...
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Dissatisfaction

Repeating like the toilet roll swipe after swipe. Each thought used and flushed till the mess is clean. Nothing left but the porclin bowl and the brown toilet roll. Telephones I'll make of them and communicate. My waste will be our connection, if your feeling the affliction painful hemroids throbing right.

Its all good we got this, just some time off your lazy ass...
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-Legacy-

This Blood is rotten, Infested with remorse, "I'm Not Listening!"
The thunderous screams are drowning in the sounds of stagnant death.
I'm wishing, "Oh I'm FUCKING WISHING" down at the bottom of the well.
This taste so twisted around my tongue, barbed wire fire flung.
How much? how much? HOW FUCKING MUCH?

Learn!? We learn to forget.
Have you ever seen a movie without...
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Ha, philosophy 102, thats what set me off.

In bars your not supposed to talk about relegion & poltics, same goes for freshman level philosophy classes.

How easy was it to watch hell break loose, "Hey I want the class to disprove God without dismissing the bible or my belief in God"

For starters half the student's didn't understand what it meant to dismiss the...
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