I'm so devastated the most unique, talented, abstract and tragic bands The Blood Brothers just broke up. That band was my voice, my thoughts, my emotions and my love. The first girl I ever loved introduced me to that band and it was special. I had never heard such abstract amazing tragic rage. The things they said the way they said them like a movie seen from the underground. Truth devoid of false happy ideas.

My heart is torn into shreds. I feel without a part of me... I wish I just could have seen them live once ...just once ...

That band represented every aspect of my soul, it was me.
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</3 I drink tonight...

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I am a child desperately seeking approval but only from those I respect and care about which is few and none. If I love you I will give you the world if I don't like you I will give you a witty insult. It seems so simple to me but I am socially retarded. My friendship skills were not developed until recently and for some reason that means people take advantage of me. All of my recent friends mistake kindness for weakness. It really pisses me the fuck off.

I can't be nice to my friends or they will try to take advantage of me. Like WTF?!?!?!
Seriously what is that shit. "Oh this guy is really cool and fun to hang out with plus he gives me free shit!!! LETS STEAL IT!!!"

I don't need or want money the fact that I make alot of it is actually a joke I play on society. Look at me make all this fucking money I don't deserve and then spend it on drugs to support crime. It makes me laugh, so since I like to share shit I dont care about with friends they seem to think I am weak.

They usually find out I'm not...at the abrupt end of our friendship. Fucking idiots, they were never friends in the first place. I just get angry that generosity leads down that path. I dunno maybe if I give them things and then bash them in the side of the head they will stop being retarded.