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antiprincess

Manteca, CA

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Tuesday Jan 04, 2005

Jan 4, 2005
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I've lived in my current place for over 5 months now. But never, in my memory, have I woken up so many times in a place not knowing where I am.

This morning I had a nightmare, a really bad one, and woke up all freaked out. My first thought was that I was going to go crawl in bed with my mom. My mom?! I haven't lived there in almost 6 years. My next thought was I would just roll over and cuddle up next to Peter. Who is my ex. Who I haven't lived with in 5 months. I rolled over and he wasn't there. And I didn't know where I was for a minute. That is such a weird feeling. I don't know what that's all about. One time I woke up here, and, without opening my eyes, I thought I was at my mom's house. Not like it is now, not like it was when I moved out, but like it was more than 10 years ago! I love where I live, but I wonder if it all means something.
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miffy:
she doesn't think it's wrong. that's the hard part, you can only get frustrated when they really think they're innocent.

Don't think too hard about it - one day waking up in a bed that is not the one you're in now will feel akward. It's just time.
Jan 9, 2005
requiem:
I hope she is in fact a kitty - I do so hate those little scruffy dogs.

In regards to your journal entry, if it seems to be because of the place, you should move. It's more because of the people who are missing from your daily live, don't worry - it'll pass.
Jan 9, 2005

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