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I think we all just kinda get into these weird spells of not feeling up to snuff or whatever. Being bi-polar definately doesn't help I'm sure, but I'm sure u'll be back to whatever normal is soon. Sometimes everything in the world will be right and I'll be taking my medicine like I should and there will be no reason for it, but suddenly I'll slip into some funky dark version of me and not be able to even think straight. It's a nice creative boost though But yah...at least u have the guts to get out and sing and u've got a good attitude about it. Have fun at ur magic thingy. I so don't think those things are dorky...I'm jealous cuz I wish I were that cool.

oh you're the dude with the frickin' green coat I saw ratbug56's pictures of the party. I love that coat. oh yeah I played risk tonight so your not alone in being a big nerd.

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People will be jealous of the coat.

Big Pimpin' now you need to get your bling, bling, and some weed!

so who wrote that?

sleeping is good. when you figure out a way to get a good amount of it, let me know.

I hate to say this, but I often will say yes to someone's suggestion, and then panic at the thought of actually going out and getting to know a new person, and then make up an excuse to not go. But that's just me being afraid of social interraction. Also, you mentioned you wish you could steal her away from him...I know what it's like to be w/ one person but yet be persued by another. Sometimes I think i would actually be better off getting to know that other person, but I get so worried about ruined my current relationship and the new one not working I try to avoid it. I hate being alone. Everybody does, despite how they may deny it. I fear it so much, that I am willing to pass up oppertunities just so I can feel secure. Maybe she is afraid of the same thing. The unknown is scary. Maybe you'd be better off letting her come to u if she wants? I don't know. But it's not worth rotting from the inside over...find something that may help take your mind off it. Whatever happens, I wish you luck and hope you cheer up soon. Sorry i rambled!

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I understand your emotions and needs very well, infact I think that everyone can relate to these different emotions and cravings at some point in their lifetime. I will just tell you what I've come to realize. It is better to get to know your own emotions and self first before you try to be with someone else. You will understand yourself better and then so can the person you ever end up with in the future. You might already be aware of these things, but actually getting to know how you really are can be scary. Also, starting to realize that you might have to be alone for a while can be a scary feeling as well. I am now anti-relationship, I have no real desire to even ever get married or find anyone new. I haven't always been like this though. I used to want to get married and find that one special love forever. I think next will be a balancing of the two extremes. I'm happy with myself, not always the way my life is going, but me, I am comfortible with my personality. I know myself really well and for you to ever know yourself well enough you have to go through lonliness and different emotions. You won't be alone forever though. Your wanting to be with this girl might also just be stemmed from your current fear of being alone..wait for the girl that is right for you, don't wait for someone elses girl to maybe want you. I also know what its like to want someone who is already in a relationship, it hurts, but I know that they would never really be mine, so I moved on quickly. Then, I've been on the other side of it where someone else likes me while I'm in the relationship. Even if I might want to be with them or not, it makes me feel like I am doing something wrong, even if it can be somewhat flattering. Life and love work in mysterious ways, you'll never know what will end up happening. Good luck!

whoa! this is an interesting new look for SG.... it's going to take some getting used to, but i think i like it. um... yeah....

Dude, Queer As Folk is now on DVD. You don't need no stinkin' Showtime...

wow that was alittle weird! http://suicidegirls.com/boards/The+Site/25581/

That's pretty much how I've felt all weekend, man... I've already dubbed it Murphy's Weekend, because absolutely nothing has gone right.

Let's hope we both get out of these ruts we're in.

Yes it is!!!

What year are you at athens? I have a dear friend who goes there. I dig ur music tastes. Nat King Cole is great...it's nice to see that someone else (other than my dad, haha) can appreciate him.