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Portland, OR

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Friday Dec 27, 2002

Dec 27, 2002
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"to you"

all i want is to be with you
all that i can give is yours
but i can never tell you how i feel
cuz' all i have is seeped in so much pain,
but maybe if i let you in
then all of my sadness would melt away.
this abyss i am laying in
falls around me, traps me within

i know your mind is not on me
but i wish i could be the one
your heart is for

you bring such light to my world
when you're near
but you'll never be here with me.
why is it him that you want
at your side?
how can you know that
he'll never leave?
i would always be there for you,
leave everything just to comfort you.

all of this for you.

but i am stuck here unable to move on.

repeat these lies i tell myself
can't exorcise this deciet
or get you off my mind.

after all this time i still think of you
think of all these things i did to you

selfish thoughts override my mind
simple truth of living in this lie
never put your trust in me

i have nothing to give you
never enough to satisfy

fail, fail, fail...

madness overtakes all i am

stay away from these lies i say

this vast nothing i offer to you
i will only bring you down
so
run,
run,
run,
run!





I finished these lyrics about a week ago. They say a lot about where I am right now... what that means exactly... well, i don't know. but i'm feeling down, and I'm pulling myself further down (as i usually do). but hey, if i can write music from my own depression, at least some good is coming from it, eh?
votemoneyshot:
hey man,

we share the same fantasy. sarah mchlachlan lives in my neighbourhood (west vancouver), I see her when I walk my dogs, she has a great smile.

check out my band The Collapse, you might like them...

http://votemoneyshot.com/projects/collapse/

peace

-dayv
May 7, 2003

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