i'm so tired... i've been a wreck for the past week or so, not getting much sleep, or sleeping too much. but no matter what, i'm always so tired... i don't feel like doing anything except whine like i am right now... 
but i am starting to do a lot better. i think that i'm starting to go back on the upswing out of this slide into depression. but we'll see. stupid rapid-cycling bi-polar type II.... 
on an unrelated note, i've finally started to pick up the violin again, and I found a cool place to get sheet music online, so i'll be able to get neat material. I have a copy of violin concerto in A minor Op.3 No. 6 by Vivaldi, so that makes me happy. it looks pretty hard for a beginner like me (it's all 8th and 16th notes... and my bowing isn't that great at the moment, so the string transitions are tough), but methinks it will do me good to practice and practice and practice the hell out of it. i really want to learn the violin, and i'm determined to teach myself. thankfully, my girlfriend also plays the cello, so she can give me some little tidbits of advice here and there, and hopefully we can start playing together sometime within the next few months. assuming i can become un-sucky...
oh, and on that note, things are looking to be ok with ali and myself. i know that i won't be able to trust her for a long time to come... but my love for her is too great, and despite what pain may come of it, i can't stand the thought of being without her. and at the moment, things are great between the two of us, and we will have been together for two months on the 28th. oh how time passes... and how many things happen in that short amount of time. *sigh*
but i am starting to do a lot better. i think that i'm starting to go back on the upswing out of this slide into depression. but we'll see. stupid rapid-cycling bi-polar type II....
on an unrelated note, i've finally started to pick up the violin again, and I found a cool place to get sheet music online, so i'll be able to get neat material. I have a copy of violin concerto in A minor Op.3 No. 6 by Vivaldi, so that makes me happy. it looks pretty hard for a beginner like me (it's all 8th and 16th notes... and my bowing isn't that great at the moment, so the string transitions are tough), but methinks it will do me good to practice and practice and practice the hell out of it. i really want to learn the violin, and i'm determined to teach myself. thankfully, my girlfriend also plays the cello, so she can give me some little tidbits of advice here and there, and hopefully we can start playing together sometime within the next few months. assuming i can become un-sucky...
oh, and on that note, things are looking to be ok with ali and myself. i know that i won't be able to trust her for a long time to come... but my love for her is too great, and despite what pain may come of it, i can't stand the thought of being without her. and at the moment, things are great between the two of us, and we will have been together for two months on the 28th. oh how time passes... and how many things happen in that short amount of time. *sigh*
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sarc:
I didn't know you played the violin. That's awesome, dude. I need to start practicing my bass again...
bort79:
Wow I've been gone for way too long! Well at least over 2 months. I hope that things continue to work out between you and your girlfriend. 