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Portland, OR

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Saturday Jul 05, 2003

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It's been a long while since i've updated this journal, but not many people read this i'm sure. But for those silly people that are reading this, here's a poem for your trouble:

there must be something
sick and desperate
simply pathetic
about me
for everyone i turn away
tell to leave
force aside
takes me back
with open arms
i can't help these things i do
nor do i wish
for you to leave me here
forsaken and alone
i'm trying
ever so hard
to be healthy again
and when i'm through
i hope you'll be there
waiting for me
only this time
i will be strong
i will be in my right mind
and as always
i will be completely
and utterly
yours.


there you go... hope you enjoyed it. it's pretty simple... i just want to be with her so badly... and yet she has no idea. i don't want her to know... i'm too depressed... to apathetic... to out of this world right now. i could never be what she needs. or could i? i'm so afraid to try... so afraid... and she is all ready fading from my view.

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