antihero_wraith

It's been a long couple of weeks..


I've been feeling very Bi-Polarish...

Kinda manic... mostly depressed...

Not that I have much to be upset or happy about...

I feel like I'm stuck in the same dream...

Spinning around the same drain...

Seeing the same old thing from new angles and I'm still not impressed.

Lets see if TR can sum it up for me....


-long pause-

-rustling paperwork-


Oh yeah... here it is...

"I Do Not Want This"

I'm losing ground
you know how this world can beat you down
I'm made of clay
I fear I'm the only one who thinks this way
I'm always falling down the same hill
bamboo puncturing this skin
and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall I'm drowning in
2 feet below the surface I can still make out your wavy face
and if I could just reach you maybe I could leave this place
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
you don't know just how I feel
I stay inside my bed
I have lived so many lives all in my head
don't tell me that you care
there really isn't anything, is there?
you would know, wouldn't you?
you extend your hand to those who suffer
to those who know what it really feels like
to those who've had a taste
like that means something
and oh so sick I am
and maybe I don't have a choice
and maybe that is all I have
and maybe this is a cry for help
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
you don't know just how I feel

I want to know everything
I want to be everywhere
I want to fuck everyone in the world
I want to do something that matters




Thanks again Trent...

As always.

Speaking of which...
I had an awesome time at the nails show...

Way better than I could ever hope to express in black and white....

Thanks to all the lovely girls whom I was a guest of. [wink for you know who].


I'm done writing for today...

Leave me a comment if you see this.

Wraith
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