anticus

don't write something positive if you're not feeling it. let yourself get it all out as it comes. this is YOUR journal, your place ot bleed, your place of catharsis. becoming friends with the pain is all that will help.

Thank you, sir. Nice to be back. How're things?

Good for you and your strength in the face of this trial. Your impulses to "slip" are natural but you are doing the right thing to avoid them, I tell you.

And talking to your pal Danielle - which I know usually makes you happy - is a good development as well.

I was planning on going to the Unurban to see some comedy tonight. Do you wanna go, or just come over here and hang and chat?

Let me know. The shit is about to hit the fan and I won't have as much downtime in the very near future, so I hope we can chill soon.

Yeah, it's never so much about her...no matter who the her (um...I call creative license with that one.) It's more finding out the painful truth about ourselves and why we're attracted to people who are decidedly not good for us.

I wish nothing but the best for you and your battered heart.

You know where I stand on the issue. We should talk again soon; call whenever, bro.

Hang tough.

don't even try
to sort out the lies
it's worse to try to understand
-type o negative "i know you're fucking someone else"

now, the boys from brooklyn (that's type o negative in case you didn't know) aren't much on waxing eloquent, but the particular song those bars come from is perhaps the rawest, uglliest, blunt intrumentest, truest "she fucked me over" song in the history of "she fucked me over" songs.

if you have gmail i'll email it to you. it won't give you any insight and will probably twist the knife a little, but like a bullet wound or road rash, it always hurts more when you're excising the foreign, poisonous material in order to heal.

-pb

and then there were 11.

Oh fucking hell, 6 CONFIRMED other guys? This needs to come to and end, and I guess it has now, finally. You can't let her do anything more to you. You need to feel better about yourself and stronger. Forget about the good things for a while. It's easier to get by in the beginning if you just think of the bad things and get angry and think that she can fuck off and that you shouldn't care that much anymore because clearly she isn't worth it. Yes, it's sad it didn't work out, and it's sad she's maybe not doing too well with relationships and being honest but you can't do anything about that. You need to concentrate on yourself. Do things that are fun. It can be little things. Get to know some new good people, or hang out with the old. Do silly happenings. Take walks. Take pictures for me of LA sometime. Get hugs!

Oh come on, just take snapshots. It couldn't be easier. Just push the button. I want to see your world, you see mine. It's not fair ; )

You'll be fine. For sure. It will just take some time, but you know it, so hang in there, and try and do as much good stuff as possible. Don't think too much.

Sorry but it got time to shape up itself..

too bad.

i hate it when things suck, well except for some things, but that's different isn't it.

Dude: do you know this band Lovedrug? They're one of my new favorites. For a test drive, so to iTunes and buy a single called "The Narcoleptic" right now (though their first album, I am just discovering, is pretty great, too).

Please.

You can thank me later.

And also, from the album: a song called "Down Towards The Healing" just about makes me cry like a baby everytime I hear it. Great shit.

Hope you're having a good time T.

that was a succinct yet vague statement you made!

damn. sounds like she got you and good. Sacred fools is a fun company. They let me do the craziest shit.