anticus

Am so stresseed. Need all the art and text for the website by tomorrow. I need a substantial amount of finished art by the weekend, so I can get blurbs for the website. This next months seems like one day for me.

I wouldn't have it any other way. I will make my best decisions this way.

My crush girl didn't get her job. She's not moving to Phoenix, but I don't know when I'll hear from her next. I don't have her number or email. I just want to talk to her. Not sex. Not a girlfriend. I just want to talk to a funny, pretty girl again. But she is depressed, so I must have the patience of a Jedi.

Just for reference ,she is 7th behind Cedar, Tryst, Danielle, Lenox, Jessie & Severus.

It's strange that my life here in LA might be wrapping up soon. The summer is going to fly by and then there will be huge decisions to make. I don't want to be here for Octobert-Janurary. Because of her. Don't know where I want to be. Don't know where I can afford to be. I'd love to get a place in Tuscany.

But I have NO IDEA what the circumstances will be then. Strange.

I am drinking all the scotch Cineman and I are supposed to share tomorrow. Guess I'll have to pick up another bottle. Being drunk makes me think about her. It's bad. It's a weakness. An addiction.

I miss being called sexy. I'm a middle aged man. One woman in 10,000 thinks I'm sexy. Sexy is for the youth.