anticus

I'll be damned if I didn't have an entire night (well, the 5 hours I actually slept) of sexual dreams about her! And then I had to think about who she's been with recently (that includes while we were together) and it just repulses me and makes me violently jealous!

I suppose I'm feeling that 2 month longing thing that I have noticed happens. It's aggravating since I know there's no way we could reconcile - especially with the images of the above paragraph so vivid in my skull - even though I didn't physically catch her with anyone. Stupid imagination.

Must concentrate only on myself.

I don't want her and I definitely don't need her.

Fuck if I don't miss her though. Fuck!