Odd day today. I woke up to my entire town being in a shitty mood. I was called an asshole by some random woman this morning, and all I did was wait for her to leave the pump she was at so I could fill up. One of my neighbors was on one today, and I actually had to ask him to calm down. Nothing in life is so important to get that worked up about. I used to have a problem with freaking out over little shit, but I've gotten so much better. So with everyone being on one, I just took a nap after only being up for three hours. Oddly enough, I was able to sleep until five. I've not been sleeping all that well for sometime now, and it is nice when my body decides it is time.
Other than that, just trying to get ready to move. It has been hard not being able to tell any one. Two more weeks and I'll be able to let the cat out of the bag though. Sometimes I think it would just be easier to live my social life through the computer on a site like this. With school it is very hard for e to balance everyone. Everyone seems to want to much my my time, and self really. I seem to be the only one moving in my direction, I find myself being pulled to polar ends. I am sure once I make this move I will only be meeting like minded people, making everything a bit smoother. It isn't that I don't like and love my friends, my family really, it is just there is so much pressure to remain the same. Like this somehow allows everyone else to stay in place as well, and I do hate the fact that there are those whom want nothing more to keep me in my place. I so tired of being made to feel like shit because I don't come to a show, or some sort of other event. A great deal of this is my fault, I do understand that I've put so much into people over the last five years, that me slipping away is as if I don't care anymore. Nothing can be further from the truth. It isn't that I don't care anymore, I just don't want to spend the rest of my life parting and what not.f
Enough of that. Everyone have an amazing night. Learn something new about the world around you, and try and make some little step to improve your local reality. Even if it is something as simple as giving someone a smile.
Beans and Rice People.
Other than that, just trying to get ready to move. It has been hard not being able to tell any one. Two more weeks and I'll be able to let the cat out of the bag though. Sometimes I think it would just be easier to live my social life through the computer on a site like this. With school it is very hard for e to balance everyone. Everyone seems to want to much my my time, and self really. I seem to be the only one moving in my direction, I find myself being pulled to polar ends. I am sure once I make this move I will only be meeting like minded people, making everything a bit smoother. It isn't that I don't like and love my friends, my family really, it is just there is so much pressure to remain the same. Like this somehow allows everyone else to stay in place as well, and I do hate the fact that there are those whom want nothing more to keep me in my place. I so tired of being made to feel like shit because I don't come to a show, or some sort of other event. A great deal of this is my fault, I do understand that I've put so much into people over the last five years, that me slipping away is as if I don't care anymore. Nothing can be further from the truth. It isn't that I don't care anymore, I just don't want to spend the rest of my life parting and what not.f
Enough of that. Everyone have an amazing night. Learn something new about the world around you, and try and make some little step to improve your local reality. Even if it is something as simple as giving someone a smile.
Beans and Rice People.
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