anticlimatic200

I withdrew myself from the day program yesterday, which felt liberating in a sense. At the same time though, I'm left with the feeling "what do I do now?", but I've already made numerous appointments with various doctors to deal with this, so I won't be sitting and moping around the house all the time. I did sit and mope for a bit yesterday, but when my roommate and I went out for lunch at Wendy's, I felt better. I just need to remind myself that I was always in this program voluntarily and that I could have left after the first day. I kept tolding my psychiatrist that I wasn't enjoying myself at the program and it wasn't what I needed, but I kept getting the answer that I didn't know what I wanted. If I was there on a voluntary basis, wouldn't I know what I want? I also really needed to get out of there because a lot of people who were in Unit 45 with me (as well as people from Unit 49 who were in groups with me as well) started to show up, which made me feel very uncomfortable because it all represented the lowest point in all of this mess and I felt as if I was reliving it. Blah.

My hair keeps on falling out as if I have a thyroid problem, which sucks. In return, its left my scalp a nasty mess as well. I've now gone on the Head and Shoulders regimine as well as my Dove Conditioner because I still want my hair to smell nice. Hrumph. I'm still awaiting my Record of Employment from Depot as it needed to come in from Atlanta (HD head office) because that's where all of that paperwork comes from, apparently. That, of course, means that I don't have any money going into my bank account, which means I am now feeling the effects of it. I had to borrow money from my mom so I could get gas into my car of all things! I'm not used to asking for money like this, so it does make me feel slightly uncomfortable, despite the fact my parents keep on telling me that they'll reload my bank account until I go back to work. Speaking of work, I got a card in the mail from my paint department posse which was really sweet of them; it's nice to be missed.

Blah.

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