anthrax84

So I went out with some people I know out to a bar for a friend of a friends birthday, needless to say I knew no one there well more like I knew three people tops and had a terrible time socializing. It seems like I never really have anything to say sometimes and last night was one of those nights. Then I meet this girl we start talking give her my number, 30 min later one of my good friends one up's me by doing the same thing and ends up talking to her the entire night after I leave her to use the restroom for like 3 minuets. I don't get it why do I bother going out I just more annoyed with people every time I try and go out and try and have a good time. Worst part was I did not drive to the bar wich was about 15 miles away so I had to wait till my ride decided it was time to call it a night. Maybe becoming a hermit wouldn't be a bad thing at this point just work come home and repeat. Also I am on my fourth month on Match.com and my second month on POF.com and have had ZERO luck, just a few e-mails back and forth then they die off. Maybe I'm just ment to be alone forever who knows the last girl I really cared for was over 4 years ago I'm just not sure if letting her go was my only chance at being happy. I really would love to be happy again, I'm just tired of being alone all the time. OK that's my sunday rant I could use some advise from anyone who reads this. :