Hi there princesses and princes!
So I'm home from work, had a salad and a special kind of bread that I don't know the name of. It's airy and has a ton of salt on top. Anywho, I was thinking today about me and who I am and what defines me. And I don't know if I like the outcome. There are a few things I just really hate about myself, and one of them being that I will think of a scenario, say, my cat getting hit by a car. And I will live that moment in my head and think out my reaction and so forth. This I will do with everything. I mean, one day I can start thinking about, what if my mom dies, what would I do, how would I react, what would I say.
I truly believe that thinking like that can not in any way be healthy. So I am going to try to control what I think about more. And stop trying to control everything, cause that's what it is when you get to the bottom of it. It's me controlling everything, cause if I already have reacted out this scenario in my head, well, then I already know what will happen. But I also do this with good things, like surprises. So I always end up fucking up any surprise that could ever happen to me, cause I have already thought of it. Do you see where I am going?
I don't really know how to explain it all, I mean, it is in my head. But this is really bugging me lately. I worry too much. I mean, ok. We we're watching "Dirty Jobs" on Discovery last night and he was in a mountain where they were digging out marble. He had to go under a block of marble to do something and Eirik (my better half) is laughing at how insane it is, and all I can say is "Makes you think about how expencive their life insurance is" Come on! I hate it when I'm like that. I just want to be "free" of all my worries.
Work is awesome. I love the fact that now I can walk to work instead of taking trains and buses for one and a half hour to get there. Even though it is far away from the city, not really, but a 30 min drive. My friends still complain and not to mention tease me for moving to farm city. haha. I mean, they cruise in tractors here. I kid you not. But I still love it! And its only a drive or a train from Stavanger, so I'm fine.
Well, Eirik is still not done photoshopping my set, but it's right around the corner
Over and out
PS. Its not real fur
So I'm home from work, had a salad and a special kind of bread that I don't know the name of. It's airy and has a ton of salt on top. Anywho, I was thinking today about me and who I am and what defines me. And I don't know if I like the outcome. There are a few things I just really hate about myself, and one of them being that I will think of a scenario, say, my cat getting hit by a car. And I will live that moment in my head and think out my reaction and so forth. This I will do with everything. I mean, one day I can start thinking about, what if my mom dies, what would I do, how would I react, what would I say.
I truly believe that thinking like that can not in any way be healthy. So I am going to try to control what I think about more. And stop trying to control everything, cause that's what it is when you get to the bottom of it. It's me controlling everything, cause if I already have reacted out this scenario in my head, well, then I already know what will happen. But I also do this with good things, like surprises. So I always end up fucking up any surprise that could ever happen to me, cause I have already thought of it. Do you see where I am going?
I don't really know how to explain it all, I mean, it is in my head. But this is really bugging me lately. I worry too much. I mean, ok. We we're watching "Dirty Jobs" on Discovery last night and he was in a mountain where they were digging out marble. He had to go under a block of marble to do something and Eirik (my better half) is laughing at how insane it is, and all I can say is "Makes you think about how expencive their life insurance is" Come on! I hate it when I'm like that. I just want to be "free" of all my worries.
Work is awesome. I love the fact that now I can walk to work instead of taking trains and buses for one and a half hour to get there. Even though it is far away from the city, not really, but a 30 min drive. My friends still complain and not to mention tease me for moving to farm city. haha. I mean, they cruise in tractors here. I kid you not. But I still love it! And its only a drive or a train from Stavanger, so I'm fine.
Well, Eirik is still not done photoshopping my set, but it's right around the corner
Over and out
PS. Its not real fur
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Everyone always hates things about themselves, I hate most of the things about myself. but I dont think there is anything wrong with doing that, I do that all the time, I think it kind of prepares you for if it does happen, I dont think that is something we can change, at least for me it just pops in my head.
I think that is kind of a cute response, I mean if you hate doing it then I guess you should try to change but I really dont see anything wrong with it.
It sounds like it was a good move to me, I use to live out in the country, it is a pretty good life, but where I lived there was no big cities close by so I had to move, if there had been a big city close by I would have stayed there.
I cant wait to see the set.
That is a beautiful photo.