anotherallniter

This will be a rant nothing more, nothing less

In case you havent already known about me, I love to rant and just spill the shit and filth of the day upon my blog So, just fair warning this is going to me mainly boring

These past couple of days has been extremely stressful and painful. It seems like everything around me is falling apart and nothing seems to be going right for me

Lets start off from last weekend shall we, well I got to see some of my close friends from the home town, went to a concert they were having nearby my apartment , so I went out enjoyed their music, and took a couple of promo pics for them.

It was bitter sweet; I miss being active with them, running up on stage and grabbing a mic and just singing/screaming along with them. It was hard seeing them as they continued their dreams and my path lead me away from them. We chilled caught up, and then ate dinner at the BK lounge.

Like I said it was awesome to catch up and also sad reflecting on myself and fun memories of the past.

After that, I come to find out that my college has more than doubled my bill! It went from around 300 to 700 and I didnt even find out about the new bill until it was 12 hours before it needed to be paid! I was so furious and once again the staff and finical help was no fucking help what so ever. So luckily my pops spotted me the money to help me cover it I have to pay him back soon which also fucked but all my plans. I barely have enough money to eat, get gas, or even purchase my tobacco. I have to also put my tattoo on hold again which has pretty much been on hold for close to 5 months now

Furthermore, I keep procrastinating and putting off my work that needs to be due on Tuesday. I have a 15 page paper due, 5 three page assignments, and also I whole bunch of statue summaries and a trial report. This term has been one of the hardest for me so far and I cant believe all this shit is just being thrown my way.

Other than that, Monday I went to a trail which was an attempted murder, robbery, burglary, criminal trespassing, and something else. It was an intense trial and was pretty heated.

Then on Tuesday I went with my criminal law class to go and visit a police academy, it was interesting

I volunteered to be tasered, but the officers would do it. I mean want to know what it feels like; Ive been maced and struck with both a billy club and a friction baton, why not make it three for three right? Anyways they wouldnt even after I said I would sign a consent form.

From there I went to sonic and got this bad ass slushy I think it was the lemon berry it was the route 44 size and it lasted me all day! It was so fucking good.

Umm other than that my week consisted of work, college, and an abundant amount of arguing.

Any way me and Sassie say Alkaline Trio last night in Philly, it was awesome. We also ran into bloodlined and his little bro who was a kickass kid.

Yeah other than that, Im tired and dont have the will to stay up any longer, I tried doing some school work, but that failed horrible.

Im alone tonight and I feel extremely alone and isolated, I have been feeling this way a lot lately, just barren and lost within my own thoughts. I cant seem to find happiness

Sassie is off at some bar with some of her friends I mean I feel kind of left out, but hell what can I do? Ohwell, nothing left to do I suppose. I just feel lost and alone. My room is always cold and I cant seem to ever warm it up. My body feels so frozen and it doesnt matter how many articles of clothing or blankets I put over my body, I still feel like Im freezing.

On another note, about feeling alone, a lot of my friends have abandoned me, I feel as if people have just been ignoring me, or maybe they have forgotten about me

Either way its still a depressing thought.

Another thing is that I have people that reach out but yet they dont want help? They drop bombshells on you and when you worry about them they just seem to fade back into the shadows and leave you hanging I dont understand it

Well I guess thats about it

Niter over and out.