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Today I saw three crows attacking a red tailed hawk on a highway I travel every day. It was a surreal sight, just three black crows encircling and taunting. The hawk stood its ground perched upon an exit sign. It seemed as if the constant swoops and calls from the crows had no effect on it what so ever, I think its a sign.
I just dont understand life sometimes and the cards that it deals us, I dont understand why things have to be the way they are, and I certainly dont understand the human race or our minds. I dont understand what its like to be in another persons shoes, and sometimes I dont want to, Im sick of the mediocre filth that my mind ponders over day in and day out. Sometimes I just want silence. Sometimes I just want to drive until I reach an ocean or run out of gas, sometimes I want to run until my legs give out, and sometimes I want to hide until they forget all about me. But Ive learned from my mistakes that shit doesnt simply go away and it sure as hell wont stop following you. Ive learned that love is a battle field and there sure as hell is no Geneva Convention for this warfare. I dont understand life sometimes, and sometimes I try too hard. I need to just let go, but Im afraid Ill let others down. Im afraid I wont be there for the ones I love and care for. But hell isnt it all just a game? Isnt this thing we call life just a way to measure our success as a person? I think not, I think that each persons is their own time to shine, their own time to get gratification, but I need to believe in myself before I hope to accomplish my mark.
I wish all of you the best of luck in your endeavors.