Can't sleep...its 2:20 Am and all is still in the warmness of mid-summer.Outside my window the night communes with the sound of crickets,trees,and tiny creatures performing thier ballet of life.Inside me something stirs.My body aches for no apparent reason..thats a lie.reprecussions of a life of pushing and pulling and abusing my body when I was a man-child who thought he was the vessel of wisedom in his reckless dance of living life and filling every moment.It is to be expected.It is the price we pay.Howling at the moon till morning and heading the call like children of the night with so much to say,and so much to do and people to hold and love.Time to hunt.Sometimes a life of being nocturnal never lets the mind and the heart sleep while the body learns to slumber..sometimes.It seems worse when there is something on my mind or in my soul that I can't quite put a finger on.something is there.some lingering or need or hunger or concern.It seems like the aches come more often lately when the days seem longer. I am not old,not old by any means,at least not in elf years,but maybe so in wolf years.My body still shows its youth and enthusiasm for life on the outside.My skin is strong and smooth and my ink has not faded.My eyes are still clear and blue and actually see further then every in some respects. I feel and give pleasure more intensely then ever. I still feel the warm breeze along my naked body as I sit at the computer by the open window. The sleekness of the cat laying near my feet. Yet inside my body betrays me,like a tree that is still young while having given fruit for years and years that has nurtured so many. my limbs creak sometimes. I lay awake while others rest in my branches. I lay awake while mistress moon wraps her cloak around everything and answer her embrace. all is well in my world, on the other side of the house my amazing daughter lies in her bed home safe after a night of revelery with her friends,now she slumbers as do others. Our Holt holds all that are dear to me.Still my body keeps me awake. my body aches..there is no hunt tonight.I sit and listen to the night continue it's dance.Time enough to sleep when I am dead.
