annisa

wow..it's been a while since I updated

first of all, thank you to everyone for your comments and concern for me and Julianna..it means a lot to me

Julianna Madison Harvey
March 5 2009
she is so beautiful that she looks like a little alien..it's like she is too perfect






I was in the hospital for a little under a month and then I had her at 29 weeks..just short of 30 weeks. She will be six weeks old on Thursday, she has already had to have surgery twice and needs one more before she goes home. She is one strong little lady and has some scars to prove it..hopefully, she will think they are really cool as she gets older.

I feel like I am in a fog. We are here at the hospital at least 12 - 16 hours a day and when I am home I don't get much sleep..believe me, I am not complaining. I can't wait until this is over and she can come home..but, doing her care here and nursing her is keeping me sane. When she was in a more critical condition we were not able to do much for her at all so this is a blessing. Having a sick preemie is so different then having a healthy full term baby, you sort of need to go against your instincts for a bit until you get a feel for your baby. They can't be held, touched or talked softly to at first..it over stimulates them which makes sense as they are supposed to still be in the womb.

This is one of the hardest things I have ever been through in my life..I am ready to give this little girl the best life imaginable..she deserves so much more than this

I really meant for this to be a happier blog so I hope this didn't come off sounding depressing..emotions kind of spill all out lately. But, really...I didn't want this to seem like a cry out for sympathy. I have a gorgeous little girl and this is just a little bump we need to cross..everything is going to be amazing very soon