What a fun weekend!!!! Josh and I went to the Warped Tour, we took the lovely and sweet Benni to lunch, and we went to the Gay and Lesbian pride parade!! I just have to say that Benni is the coolest chick and her boner is HUGE!!! WOW 
Now we just need to meet delusion and I will be so so so happy!!!!
Now we just need to meet delusion and I will be so so so happy!!!! VIEW 11 of 11 COMMENTS
, it means someone needs to simmer right the fuck down. 
i just finished peeling from last weekend when i went out on my friends boat. i'm a redhead so if i get color (red) i peel. it comes with the territory. sun block babe 30+
things are good here. its kinda a long and convoluted story but i was engaged until about a month and a half ago. he had cheated on me a few times and i really just had let it go even though it hurt soooo bad. then, he decides to come clean and tell me that he had actually had another girlfriend while we were living together. for some reason, sex i can chalk up to being a mistake made by a horny young boy but the calculated deception and betrayal that would have to go into actually maintaining 2 relationships was just more than i can handle, so even though i loved him & it was the hardest thing i've ever done, i kicked him out. then about 2 weeks later, i start talking to pale_blue_eyes a lot on the phone and stuff. there was/is just something about him that makes me feel like i'm not dead inside or incapable of trusting or loving like i thought i was. hes talented and passionate, amazing and gentle, smart and hot as fuck and he treats me like a queen but hes not a romancer. sometimes he does shit that makes me want to beat him relentlessly or else go cry in a corner somewhere. but its only because he is unfailingly honest and real and open. i have never in my life done anything this spontaneous or reckless & i am so glad that i did. hes been here for 2 weeks and its been great except for the gnawing guilt that i just cant shake. im shit at hurting people. i just cant do it. and my ex is really wrecked over it. josh gets soooo pissed when i say that though. and i know its stupid to protect his feelings, but i loved him for 4 years and it still kills me to not see him and not hear from him but know through friends how much he is struggling. meh...oh well.
longest comment ever. sorry. but, this has to make up for the couple of yours that i missed. thanks for reading my stuff by the way. writing is the air in my lungs, its everything in the world to me.
so, youre at a&m right? i go to ucsb and right now, i hate it. its so irritating to be sitting in a summer school class when i can see sailboats in the harbor and people laying on the beach from my class window.