anniesegall

ARRgHH! just realized that i don't have your number, i was gonna call you. i had such a good day !!! finally. it's about time. so, i enrolled in a math class at the university today that is perfect!! it will let me transfer with the scholarship, it's way easier than the other one and its at 3:30 so i can still go to the beach all day. and then, i talked to my mom, told her everything, including that eric is moving with me in 2 weeks and she was so good and so supportive!!! i feel like crying just typing this. she told me 'i hope you know that you don't have to only call me with good news, i want to hear from you when you're failing, when you're hurting, when you're disappointed and when you have made a mistake. i'm proud of you all the time, because i love you, i'm your mom'. fuck, michelle, she has NEVER told me that. all i have ever heard is how foolish i was to quit teaching to try and write and how silly my stories are and my ex was the only thing that was ever good enough in her eyes. but today, she was just here for me and i feel so good and so relieved. and i have to pass this class, i need to devote myself.
thanks for even caring about all this, i ramble i know. but, you and josh are somehow really important to me and he helped me so much when i was getting smart enough to leave my ex and now you are so sweet to me through this. i am a corny motherfucker but you guys rock ass.
so, have we figured anything out for your trip???
love you girly...

ok, lets just pretend that i didn't just post this in my own journal...
hey girly,
just got home, severely need to relax my brain muscles. but, i made it through my first official university class. i'm like all college-y & stuff. the class looks way easier so yeah, cool, hopefully i'll pass this time. so, so, so....hows anatomy? have you taken either of the tests yet? studying hard? your class has lasted forever it seems like.
*siigh* i have 4 sisters so i am used to always girl voices and girl friends and the kind of commisseration that boys couldn't do even if they tried. here, i have few girl friends and i've lived with a boy for 4 years. for some reason, it was SO SO nice to have a sweet girl voice on the phone. it made me way happier than i would have expected. did i tell you my sister, my best friend, hasn't spoken to me in almost 2 months? it's totally my fault, but it hurts everyday.
anyway, this is turning into a huge ramble like my posts normally do. i need to do some ish for work & school & moving in 2 weeks...(eep SO not ready) but i'll call you or josh in a little bit so we can figure out hotels. or if you're on AIM, i'm going to be online for a little while, i'll turn that fucker on. talk to you soon lovely...
-julie

p.s. if we don't make out, i will cry.