annielane

I realized that besides looking for someone to love me,
all of these crushes are my way of looking for a cure to myself outside of myself.
And the reason that most of them are uninterested at best,
is probably because they see the desperation in my eyes
which looks good on no one--no matter how fucking thin you are
and it's the only thing I'm no good at hiding.
It's also because it's not meant to be yet,
as a matter of fact, it's meant to not be until I can get a hold of myself.
Which! is why the whole kid down the hall thing was real;
I was finally starting to get a grasp and hold my grip.
I've always had butterfingers, though.
I find it strange that my horoscopes have lead me to this discovery.