Wednesday Mar 27, 2013 by Annemarie_

I can't sleep.

The other night I was washing my hands when all of a sudden I got this sad, heartache..more like a grieving feeling can over me..I felt like someone close to me was going to lose someone..

I woke up yesterday morning thinking " I am going to receive bad news today."
Sure enough as I was leaving work, I get a text message from my boyfriend reading,
"They think that mom might have cancer, there going to run more tests." @ 1:59pm
His mother, Emma is in California.. She'll have more results on Thursday..

weather the news is good or bad, will determine if he stays here in Texas or drops out of school and goes back to Cali...

I am at a lost.. and when i am lost i run to the lord..
**Heavenly Father. It's time for me to forget the past, forget the mistakes, and focus on what you are doing in my life today. I know you are doing a new thing. You are placing the right people in my life and removing the wrong ones. You are closing old doors and preparing me for new opportunities. The pruning process can be uncomfortable and painful, but I know it's for my good. I trust you. In Jesus' name.
I think part of the reason why we hold on to something so tight is because we fear something so great won't happen twice. Aarugh. I hate when Im crying about one thing, but I end up crying about everything that's wrong.. then my nose gets stuffy and i cant breathe.. ='( ugh.. .