annajoy

another weekend upon me, with the potential for big fun. j. and i are planning on going to the redmoon winter pageant tomorrow, and i recommend it highly. check out the info here: http://www.redmoon.org/productions/season.html

and sunday night is the second half of angels in america with the "six feet under club". there are about 10 of us that get together during 6 feet under and make fabulous food and watch the show together. it has morphed into anything good on hbo club, which is ok with me. nice, nice people.

weird sleep last night...restless and not helped by my extremely nocturnal cat. gah. i love him and all but fuck.

i think choir rehearsal last night encapsulated why i should not get overextended. we are having our christmas concert this weekend, and i feel like i am just a step behind where i want to be. i have missed a few rehearsals due to school and arts group conflicts, and therefore i have only rehearsed a couple of the pieces once. in general i am concentrating more on words and notes than on the overall passion of the pieces. that is not the way i like to sing, and my whole life has been like that lately. just marking events off of my life-to-do-list, with no time to really savor what is happening or be able to reflect on anything after the fact. j. asked me the other day how my lunch with my friend h. had been, and i honestly could not even remember what we talked about.

it makes me not very fun or interesting to talk to, and more importantly i feel like time is passing with me not marking it in the ways that are important to me.

so, how do i make a change? i'll think upon it...