annajoy

sometimes i think of falling into the limbo of an occupation, then i have one of my professors smack me around and call me a poet. you should want to look forward to working, but only after you have exhausted every other means of prolonging what most refer to as adulthood. what you need to do right now is listen to track two on spoon's 'the way we get by'... i don't know... it makes me feel better. i'm humming it in my head right now and i can already feel you feeling better about petty shit that would only matter if the world wasn't coming to an end. eat life. read everything. max out a credit card. go down to clark and belmont and buy a bunch of shit you don't need. it helps to have little toys that are inexpensive- you play for a day or two, then get new ones. and that's the way we get by... the way get by... alright...

Hehheh, I have a thing for umbrellas myself. Its weird but I really like having one and using it when it is appropriate. The weirdest part is my decided awareness of it, I think.

I had an epiphany last night: my current attempt to start a life isn't working. I have decided to try to make my own new opportunities and go back to school. The problem I have *now* is that I'm not sure what I would want to do. Before it was easy: computers were blowing up and I had experience and interest there. But now what?? I'm interested in know what an obviously intelligent woman like yourself, who obviously has some direction in her life, thinks about finding direction. I think I need help here. . . .which is a minor miracle in itself because I have always had trouble realizing I needed help. Yeah, I know--typical male bullshit.

But back to the issue: could you post in my journal and let me know a little bit about how you found direction in your life??