i was trying really hard to reply to everyone before posting this, but its been about 2 hours and i just cant do it anymore. it will get done, maybe tomorrow. but not now. i am very tired of staring at this screen.
i wish you could see my room right now. its unbelievable. unbelievably messy, that is. but i really dont have the energy to get up and take a picture. meh.
my cat and i just yawned at the same time. it was really cute.
i swear to god i have interesting things to say, i just forgot them. im going to go eat a cookie and then come back. that should work.
ok, im back. my cookie has pink frosting and little heart sprinkles. this is because valentines days is the only day of the year that we are supposed to love one another. you didnt know that? for shame! ive thought of several issues to discuss, and i am desperate to try out this 'spolier' thing, so here it goes.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) i dont like my new profile picture anymore. i think that maybe i never will, that maybe i just cant handle having my face stare back at me while i type.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) a kid at work asked me out. he is a nice kid, but i am 110% sure that we have nothing in common. but i dont think he realizes this. yet. we are going out tomorrow. the plan is to be a very extreme version of myself, so he cannot relate to anything i talk about. then he will think im weird and wont ever talk to me again. i dont want to go. i really dont want to go. dates are stupid. if i had a boyfriend we would play board games and eat and fuck. because i am a nerd and a glutton and a sex fiend. this sucks. i think i will probably get really high beforehand just to make it bearable.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) my middle name is rae. my family and old friends call me by my first and middle name. i like that. so, if you want to feel special, you can call me anna rae.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) last week i went to see
koufax play in ann arbor. it was excellent. but i had been up for over a day, and we were there for 6 hours. so by the time we left i felt like i was going to die. you also couldnt smoke in building. that was a problem. the drive was great, though. on the way there, my friend dave and i talked the 3 hours straight through. i like talks like that. you learn a lot about a person. on the way back we got lost but ended up taking a quicker way home. we came upon a porn shop in the middle of no where and i bought a vibrator. then i fell asleep in the car.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) along the same lines, something strange happened to me yesterday. first of all, i pretty much only listen to deathcab when i masturbate. i think thats odd, it doesnt really seem like music to pleasure oneself to. but when im going through my playlist with dirty thoughts in mind, it just always seems right. anyways, i was listening to deathcab and making good use out of the vibrator i had bought when i suddenly (and i mean suddenly) starting crying. not a few tears, but a full-on choking cry. i didnt know what to do, i was confused. the cry felt good, but so did the vibrating shaft between my legs. so i just went with it. and it was incredible. having an orgasm whilest bawling your eyes out is a surprisingly satisfying feeling. it was a sort of emotional overload, building up for whatever reason, and being released in a very grand way. i dont know what it all means, but i dont need to.
im going to go post this and check to make sure my spoilers are working. im not done, but if they arent working im going to be pissed.
ok, ok. very good. they are even in a different font! oh man thats great.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) my battle with the education system is on-going. i dont know what the fuck to do. actually thats a lie, i know what i probably have to do. im just so sick of it being an issue. i have to transfer, and i should be able to get some governmental assistance that way. (i know that doesnt make sense, but its a lot to explain and i am very lazy.) i wish there were something i could do that would make me happy that doesnt require schooling. i genuinely long for the days where i could get married at 15, have 9 babies, and cook and crochet all day long. i think i was born in the wrong time.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) lately ive been thinking about why i post my titties all over the internet. for one, i do think i am a bit of an exhibitionist. i honestly am turned on by the thought of other people seeing me naked. and i really hate to say that, because i think its creepy as hell. the other reason is, i really like to look at titties. and im assuming you do, too. if all of the ladies who desperately want to show their titties all over the internet decided not to because its creepy, then no one, including myself, would have any titties to look at. and that would just be SAD.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) sunday i was driving to columbus and i thought, i should pierce something. so i went to piercology and decided to get my other nostril pierced. i dont have pictures of it yet, but i will at some point. the tricky thing is that she had to match it up with the one i already had done, and that one is a bit misplaced. its further up than they usually do them, so there is more cartilage, and it is more painful. it didnt hurt at all. but now it is very swollen and sore and my snot has all crusted around the inside but i cant get it off because its very painful to touch. it looks lovely and perfect, though. and i got to see lexx again. its sad, i have to keep thinking of things to get pierced so i can be in her presence. ughhhhh..... shes just soooooo pretty and sweet. i wish i were going out on a date with her instead.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) like i fucking need a new hobby, i already have 80 million of them that never receive the attention they deserve. but alas, ive picked up another. building
scale model gundams. i just ordered my first kit, im going to freak the fuck out when it arrives, im so excited! my first one will be the dragon gundam, in honor of my kitty, whom i named after the dragon gundam fighter (sai saici). if you have no idea what im talking about, you are
surely missing out.
oh my god i almost forgot! pictures!
i KNOW thats what you come here for. part of why i made the spoilers, so you dont have to scroll through all of that shit if you dont want to (but you really should, im a delightful little thing).
lets see, what is new.....
this is my osu hat that ive been wearing every day. its soooooo warm. i adore it.
pictures where youre in the middle of speaking are usually kind of gross. but this one is ok. i have to go outside of my house to smoke. its a bitch.
hmmmm.....ok.
so ive been taking lots of pictures of myself lately. im trying to learn photoshop, which is hard to do when you have no images to work with. and i have no one to take pictures of, so i just do this a lot. it makes me feel weird, but every once in a while they turn out nice.
like this one
or this one
and i didnt have any naked ones this time around, so heres some gratuitous cleavage! yay!
well well i must be going now. i have to leave in an hour, im going to see SIGUR ROS tonite! ohhhhhhh man im excited. ill tell you how it goes.
Good luck with the date-thing. Since you are not all that interested in the kid, I would try to make up an 'alternate' you. Something with JUST enoght truth that its got elements of who you are, but with some stuff that will make him be a bit uncomfortable. (But remember that since he works with you you cant go too crazy, lest he blabs that you were raise by a herd of Moose or something like that...) But, I say have some fun with that!
Speaking of concerts, you're not going to the Nine Inch Nails show in Cinci on the 25th are you?