anissa

The boy is stressing me out. He's depressed dispite the fact that times, they are a changin.
His issues go down to the marrow.
His dad died when he was 10.
He hates his job.
He hates this town.
His mom is a drunk.
His sister has issues.
He doesn't cry. He can't.
he shuts down.
He shuts people out.
Makes me feel like doesn't want me around, but his sister assures me he loves me more than anything and that I'm the best thing that's ever happend to that family.

When we broke up back in February, his mom cried all he time about it.
Despite the fact he was dating somebody else, his sister told me that all he could think about was me.
We started talking again around the end of May begining of June. He used to be so excited about us again. Now he's slipping into this sucking black hole of depression.

I get really nervous about it because, this is how it was before we broke up the first time. And I'm afraid it may happen again.
He's used that "it's not you, its me" line on me before. But, It really WAS me.
After we started talking again he said his dog brain was being angry and irrational.

I wish I could put his dog brain to sleep, so he wouldn't overthink so much and make bad choices.

I unloaded on him the other night, because I was constantly asking him if it was me and that I don't belive that he would tell me when something was wrong.
I asked him if he was sore after that and he was because it WAS him, and that's just how he deals. It's how he's always delt. It's been like that forever.

I don't think he would have been so pissed at me if it really was me.

I'm lost on the situation...

But I did pass my practical and am now a licenced cosmetologist.