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I hate my housemates, again...

It's a mate of our's birthday and I am sitting here on my own because they thought it was really funny to lock me out of the room they were all drinking and having a laugh in. Would have been funny if they had let me in a minute or two after I knocked, but here I am ten minutes later and still locked out, and this is the second time they've done it.

I have a hard time fitting in at the best of times. I'm socially self-concious and not confident around people at the best of times and these are supposed to be my closest mates, and they know this, so why do they do this? Only conclusion I can come to is I am just there to be the butt of the jokes. I try not to believe it, but they're not exactly doing loads to disprove the theory.

I will be so glad when I have left here and I can get some friends who actually treat me with respect, rather than just as someone to take this piss out of. I am sick of being the social joke, the funny guy, the one they take the piss out of to make themselves feel better. I just wish I knew why it was always me.