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I realised today that sometimes, no matter how much you want something to work it's not going to. If you've read my previous blog then you probably know what I am talking about. It's a pretty simple story; guy meets girl, falls in love, or thinks he does, then realises he's not so sure and eventually feels like it's all crashing down around him.

I really did, really do care about her. When we met we clicked so easily that I though something amazing was happening. Maybe it was. It just wasn't the amazing something that I thought it was going to be. After the magic spell had faded I could see I wasn't that into her, though rather than accept that I tried to force it to be something else.

We tried to fix it. We both wanted to fix it, but you can't force something like this no matter how much you both want it to be the way things are. I think I learned something really important that I've seen hints of in cheesey tv shows and movies, but you never really get it till you're there yourself, experiencing it. It's shit is what it is. I wish we could all just feel the way we wished we felt, but that's not possible.